from me to you

I’m taking my kisses back from you
And returning the ones you gave for free
I’m sure you’ll probably get them again someday
But never again from me

I’m rubbing away the lipstick marks
And burning your sweet words in the dark
I’m packing away my homeless heart once again
Sprawled out on the sidewalk of pain

I’m forgetting the smells of who you were
While tearing your photos off the wall
In my favorite Tee and my cigarette of choice
Feeling jejune when you walked out the door

I wonder how it came to be my friend
This make shift road has come to an end
I’m taking a detour back to sanity
As you try to take your kisses back from me

I want my kisses back from you.

For Me This Is Heaven - Jimmy Eat World

The first star I see, may not be a star.
We can't do a thing but wait.
So lets wait for one more.
And the time, such clumsy time in deciding if it's time.
I'm careful, but not sure how it goes.
You can lose yourself in your courage.

When the time we have now ends.
When the big hand goes round again.
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

And the mindless comfort grows,
when I'm alone with my great plans.
And this is what she says gets her through it:
"If I don't let myself be happy now then when?"
If not now when?

When the time we have now ends.
When the big hand goes round again.
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

I close my eyes and believe wherever you are,
you're an angel for me.

When the time we have now ends.
When the big hand goes round again.
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?

Eh Si Mi Lan.....Buay Si

And so another European Championship to AC Milan. Their 7th win really. I'm starting to wonder if red is really an unlucky colour or are English teams just not cut out for European Cups. Liverpool didn't play all that bad, just that their shots on goal were not as commited as ACs', and so, eventually, they lost 2 - 0. Oh well, what do I care honestly, I'm a Manchester United fan anyway.

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Went to Fisherman's Wharf to eat on Tuesday. It was suppose to be just Tim, Fuz Sal and myself but Fuz's touch team came, well a couple of them at least. There were more that came but they just popped by to say, "Hi" and buggered off. Cliffy was there, Dan (the guy who huffs like a dog apparently) and this south african dude whose name I just cannot remember but face and size, I will never forget.

Everyone ordered the Creamy Dory while yours truly decided, fuck it, I'll have the, no no, not just any Silver Cod but the ALANTIC Silver Cod ($14 by the way as compared to the $6.50 Dory). Here I was sitting down eagerly waiting for dinner and when it came, all I could do was stare at my TWO pieces of 10cm by 2cm fish. HWA LAN EI. I nearly flipped. I'm sure as hell certain that Long John Silver serves bigger pieces of fish. -Sigh- Oh well, lesson learnt I guess. Next time at FW, only Cream Dory for the world! Oh oh oh, I might be working there soon. As a waiter. Shall see how it goes. Am not really looking forward to smelling like fried fish everyday but heck, I need the money. Well, not need, but would love to have some more. So, if you're ever near Clarke Quay or Boat Quay, do drop by.


Who knows, I might even throw in a bit of that "home-made" special sauce.

Happily Ever After....Well, Fuck Off.

And so the weekend's come to a close again. Nothing really fairy-tale about it.

Went down to Wala's again today.

E.I.C was playing as they normally do every Sunday.
It's actually pretty amazing how they manage to entertain the crowd every time they're up on stage. It's possible that on certain days, they might be having a dose of the "shittest of shit" feelings but heck, they always rock the house.


As one idiot once said "The show must go on."

Somehow I've always associated EIC with Fuz, Steve, Ling, Jessica. -shrugs- Could be a temporary thing. Heh. Ah well, booze is always good; better especially with great music and fantastic company.
Because of J&L, I've specially dug out my rusty old camera getting ready to be the next camera whore. MWahaha. It -is- really addictive. Taking photos. Especially with crazy crazy people.
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Planning a trip with Sally, Tim and ike. Not sure where the destination is really but it's safe to assume that it's either Bali or Phuket. Accommodation's free all thanks to Tim -muack- and so all I have to do is fork out cash for the air ticket, and food, oh and prolly the occasional Spa treatment and whathaveyous. Ah yes, looking forward to unwinding and spending money, again.


Now to look for a job. T_T


"Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do without you, matter of fact
Ooh I'm on your back, I'm on your back, Ooh I'm on your back"
Foo Fighters - Walking After You

It's been such a fucking long time since I've last posted anything but all I can say is that it's been a good break for me; traveling to Bangkok, meeting new people (tranny included) and trying really hard to get a temp job.

It's strange really, when you suddenly have this feeling of begin able to accomplish anything that you want. It's new. And I'm really savoring every moment of it.

Not more than a few months before I'll be heading back to Brisbane. I'm all up for Australia again, the work, the exams and whatever the wind blows in my direction. I've learned to take everything with a pinch of salt, add some water/vodka and enjoy. Being 25 and still trying fucking hard to complete my Degree is not something that I'm really proud of but heck, at least I've been given a second chance to prove myself once again yes? I sincerely want to make my parents proud this time. No more disappointing anyone, ho!

Anyway, time to sleep. 530am. Yes, sleep sounds delightfully wonderful indeed.

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I
could
The first kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water the way you taught me
To look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love
-Snow Patrol "Make This Go On Forever"

Train this chaos turn it into light
I've got to see you one last night
Before the lions take their share
Leave us in pieces, scattered everywhere

Just give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cause you are all that I have

You're cinematic razor sharp
A welcome arrow through the heart
Under your skin feels like home
Electric shocks on aching bones

Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cause you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cause you are all that I have

There is a darkness deep in you
A frightening magic I cling to

Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear now you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear now you are all that I have