I am concrete dreams
escalating by Clarke Quay floating
on tonic and gin, grinning at the white folk
who pay my girls. I am 92 degree Wednesdays,
sweat stained schoolboys and soccer mud shoes
in a thirty people bus carrying forty,
with pineapples and mandarin oranges
sagging in a bag. I am mahjong playing
ancients, smoking. I am aluminum louvers and glowing
altars stabbed by joss sticks.
I am 89 degree yellow Tuesday crisping,
walking past single story miracles
that sell only bananas and coke.
I am water edged with a failing sense
of humor, green, with chlorophyll pages wafting
to Chinese opera on street corners. I am Lion dance
on Orchard road, flaunting my red,
denying my blue. I am Gucci and Prada
blighting oriental silk; wearing gray and Nikes
when I need nothing and slippers
I am five thirty sunrise. I am water
reclaimed as earth.. I am Friday evening beach ball
gone too far into sea, spicy barbeques and Cantonese
satin swearing. I am climbing trees to stare at people in matchbox
apartments vacuuming parquet. I am Heineken and jazz
washed over by Orion, diluted.
I am strangers
asking “have you eaten”, offering peanuts in patchwork
old town, smelling like cloves,
graced with beetle nut spit.
Written by Div
02 May, 2003
Labour Day: Where we recognize the excruciating pain which women go through when they deliver shit heads like us. =/
Chilling to: jejune / EMO music.
Feeling: EMOish. Melancholic
Thinking about: Many things. My Folks I just find is incomprehensible cause we are so impatient with each other and yet at other times we can be so nice to each other. I guess blood is really thicker than water. Friends They keep me alive. Each day is something worth living for cause you know people care for you and have been true to you always. Peace my bruddas. You know yourselves. Thanks for being there. Love Something really hard to fathom and take hold of but i guess it's the feeling of knowing that she/he's the right one for you, forever. That she/he will still hold your hand the same way she/he did when you both first met. I love you my baby. Life Ever the one thing yet unfulfilled. Something so wonderful placed into our fragile hands and selfish hearts. Life is beautiful and yet at times it's inconstant nature can wreck havoc and traumatise us without the slightest of hint. But life is a gift. Cherish it. Leaving The hardest thing that i'll be doing in my twenty years of life. Something which I hoped that I'll never have to do but cannot escape it now. For the next three years i'll be living/studying on my own. Independence day? I just hope it's all worth it and that it'll give me a shot at life. God I haven't been praying as much as i should. But I know that He's always watching over me and my family. And I just wanna say that no one can live without God. He's omnipotent and omnipresent. He sees all and knows all. If you think you can live without God, think again. Your family and friends and the life which you so foolishly take for granted comes from Him, and not some stupid ape. He is Love.
Feeling: Melancholic still and with a tinge of nostalga
Chilling to: Smashing Pumpkins's Maynonaise.
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